Catullus 83

Catullus, I've noticed, has an odd way of looking at love. He believes to be completely infatuated with - or even in love with - this married woman, Lesbia. First of all, knowing she's married, I personally wonder why Catullus would even pursue Lesbia? Also, how can he believe he is in love with Lesbia if she only speaks harsh words about him to her husband? Perhaps Lesbia is looking for ways to bring Catullus up in conversation, but can only do so if she talks of Catullus negatively. This way, her seemingly oblivious husband won't think anything of it.
Love, to me, is not having your tounge go numb or fire in your limbs; rather, it's not being able to stop smiling, or becoming speechless because of the "butterflies". It's so difficult to explain love. When you fall in love, you just know. There's no explaining it. I believe, however, that what Catullus describes is more along the lines of frustration that Lesbia is with her husband. He's so fed up with it, that the rage (which I think he mistakens for "love") feels like fire under his skin; he is so confused and frustrated that he is unable to form any words.